My how time flies!!!  It's already February of 2026, and I haven't written in months. No, that's not entirely true.  I have written, but I have not posted my writings here...yet.  Well, that's why I'm here today.  (I really need to visit here more often!  I haven't been here enough to learn how to update the various elements of my blog.  Silly me.)  

I tend to send myself texts during the day, mostly mornings when I seem to do my best thinking. I sent a variety of texts this past week.  They are examples of the way my brain works.  Perhaps an example of why I don't write/post on a daily basis.  

I'm not here to entertain anyone.  I'm here to write My Life Story.  The Memoirs of an Amateur.  I need to do that more than I need to entertain, or please others.  As (if) you read my posts, you'll see why it's important to me to reveal My Story.   

Why "amateur"?   Why not?  After all, who am I? I'm not famous.  I haven't made a big impact on this planet.  However, does that in itself mean that I have nothing to write?  Nothing to contribute?  I have things to say...mostly to my daughter.  My only child.  (The only one I know of.)

 I'm about to copy and past my texts below.  Ill put them in chronological order (oldest at top, newest at bottom). 

My morning Musings from 2/5/26 (Thursday)

1) This morning's Brain Wax.

(Mornings...the time my brain does its best thinking,  aka brainstorming (though sometimes it's just a drizzle). I usually wax poetic or philosophical....thus Brain(storming) & Wax(ing) = BrainWax.

2) I'm not here to write for others as much as I need to write for myself.  And my daughter. I may not always be grammatically correct.  So what? The important thing, for me, is to get my unfiltered, unadulterated thoughts down on "paper" while I still can.

3) No, I'm not gonna write about politics or religion in great depth. However, I will mention either as it pertains to a time of My Life. A time of discovery and/or reflection. I don't expect feedback or arguments about what is past...over & done with.    Comment but I don't need your acceptance nor do I need, or want, your criticism.  I just need, and want, to write My Story. I want to know that I'm leaving a bit of myself for family and friends...should they choose to read it.

4) My Story. I suspect it's a story that's different from The Story others have told about me.

Aah, there's The Rub.  I suspect 'my story' as told by another is not gonna match up to My Story (as told by me).

That...that right there is why I NEED to write MY STORY.

5) So, from my humble, and often shaky, beginnings, here goes. This is My Story...as told to Me....by Myself. (Oh...how my mind works.) Please stick around and get to know the Real Me.  Hopefully my daughter will get to know the Real Me. Good or bad. As my story unfolds, you'll learn why this is necessary.

6) I sit down with pen in hand to type a letter.  Hmmm. Is it still called typing if we no longer use a typewriter?  Perhaps. We say "the sun rises, or sets, when in fact WE, on this planet, are the ones rolling toward the Sun as the Earth rotates on its axis.

So...this is how my mind works.  Here one minute...gone the next. I guess I'm a tangential thinker, not a linear thinker. Each thought can, and often does, lead me in a new direction.  Never a dull moment!

7) It's easy for me to write while in the comfort of my armchair. Armchair Comfort vs Computer Confessions.  Yep. Once I get on my computer and post my writing....it's there for all to see (if anyone sees it at all).  That's scary. Perhaps that's why I need to follow through.  This train is just getting warmed up. It will be leaving the station shortly. It's gonna be a long ride. 

8) Memoirs of an Amateur.

Not intended for the entire World to see, but if you're here, welcome. Stick around...or not. I'll be here whether you are or not.

On the one hand, I want to write without editing along the way. However, on the "other hand" (another part of me) wants to go back and "correct" what I've written. Hmmm. Is that then "putting lipstick" on the real me and painting a picture (my face) of a version that isn't totally me? Then again, isn't it ALL part of me?

Post Note: This sounds like an Introduction to me.   Later, as I figure out how to modify my blog, I’ll incorporate this into a “respectable” introduction.  For now, it is what it is.

Today’s BrainWax  (2/7/26)

My Life

Not just one story but rather a multifaceted journey with a multitude of stories to be told. In that regard, it's Kayo's Misc & Etc.  A broad "description" of a complex Life. Why do we pigeon hole ourselves into a single compartment, when Life is so diverse?

 

That's it for today.   I may revisit my blog later..maybe not.  Hopefully, I'll be able to start on the meat & bones of My story.  Enough of the Introduction!  Enough of the excuses as to why I don't or cannot write!  Later!